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This is not a self-help pump up session, this is my personal journal.


I am a LOSER…

Admitting is the first step in recover, or something like that.

Why do I feel this way? First off my perspective is from a male in his late 20’s. That’s important because time is a important element of the success equation. Everyone is at a different place in life. Time is the only constant.

Lets be honest, every guy judges themselves on two main categories. Money and Girls. Everything else can be divided into these categories. Looks, confidence, happiness; all these things are very important. But they can be difficult to measure. Money and girls are easier to measure.

I haven’t had much luck in either of these two categories lately. That is why I am here, to get back on track.

Now I know that came off as very superficial. And trust me, I’m not one of those self-absorbed d-bags. I care about being a good person, enlightenment, and personal growth. I would rather have a girlfriend, and a bunch of boot calls.

Really what I care about is creating an ideal life for myself. What does that mean? (and you should write out yours too)


  • Financial Independence: Eliminating debt and creating multiple sources of income
  • Being able to pick-up women: I want to be able to go from total stranger to a date, otherwise how will I ever find a wife.
  • Building my Network: ┬áHave a group of like minded friends and connections. This will mostly be made up of males, but females can be in this group too.
  • Beating Depression: I’m not afraid to admit it, I have a serious problem with depression and anxiety.
  • Health: Look good and feel good. When I am 80 I want to look 50.

An honest self-evaluation:

Money: I have an ok job (based on salary). I graduated from college 4 years ago, and probably make an average salary based on that info. I am not happy about that. I hate being average. As a result I have tried making a second income trading and lost a significant amount of money. It was depressing. I also have a few websites that I started but never had the commitment to stick with it after a week or two. I also still have college debt and a car loan. My financial situation causes me a lot of stress and is a top priority to get straight.

Women: I have had a few girlfriends. I’m not a virgin. But now that I am out of college I am having trouble getting laid. Really I would like to find a girlfriend, but I’m picky. I have a complete lack of confidence with women unless I’m drunk. Not good. This area needs some work.

Network: Pretty shitty, I don’t know that many people. I have had trouble connecting with people, and following up. Learning this skill will dramatically improve my life.

Depression: Has been a problem for almost 10 years. Although it runs in my family, I think a lot of it is self-inflicted. Meaning I created a habit of being depressed. Something I must undo, and undo fast.

Health: I have lifted on and off for 10 years, so I am not starting from scratch which is a relief. However I can’t say I am in the best shape of my life either. Oh yea, I was also diagnosed with they deadliest type of skin cancer recently. So I am dealing with that.


What’s Next:

  1. Follow my journey
  2. Start your own
  3. We will make it.